Wednesday, March 31, 2010

A Helpful Horoscope

My horoscope for today:

"Everything becomes a bit more complex today becaue you cannot escape your feelings just by doing something else. Your emotions are more persistent now and they can gnaw at your awareness until you acknowledge them and consider the issues they raise. Although you may be irritated because you want to be independt of your attachments, slowing down and sinking into your current experience can teach you more than running off in search of the next one."

That, in a nutshell, is what this Year of Ginny is about for me. Learning to be completely comfortable and content with who I am, right now, in this moment. I've been so guilty in the past of thinking that moving on to the next best thing was the answer, in my work life and in my relationships. When really, what needed changing was me.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

All Over Again

"For what it’s worth: it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again." The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

I think it's time to start all over again. Again.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Uncool

I can't help but be amused at how my lame attempts at being cool incessantly backfire.

I'm never gonna' be one of the cool kids. I'll never be able to hang. I'll always be the first one to trip, first one to put my foot in my mouth, first one to go to bed.

And I'm OK with that.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Throwback

I feel like I'm a throwback to a generation gone by.

Love, marriage, commitment, fidelity, they've become archaic notions that so many in my generation feel aren't realistic today. "Marriage is different than it was 20 years ago," they say.

Obviously. But love isn't. I think love is the one thing that stays the same through the ages. I think that nowadays people build their commitments and marriages on things other than love, thus, our ridiculous divorce rate.

It's disappointing that we live in a society that is so jaded that many of us think that a good marriage just isn't realistic. I sometimes think I should've been born in a different decade.

I think it's time to get back to the basics.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

New

I start a new job (at the same organization) tomorrow.

It's something I've never done before. I'm excited. And a little nervous.

I think there is something to be said about starting something new. There's something about the unfamiliar that's particularly challenging.

I think I'm going to continue this trend and do some more new this year.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

It's In The Air

Two posts in one day...guess I've got a lot on my mind.

I just feel this almost tangible excitement in the air around me for what's to come. I have no idea what that is, but I have a feeling it's going to be good. Really good.

I feel a sense of newness and discovery that both excites and challenges me. Lately I've envisioned what I think my life could look like down the road in new ways. Ways that aren't dependant upon anyone else on earth (I say "on earth" because I'm making a concerted effort to make my life depend on Christ, but He's everywhere, not limited to earth like us). Dictated only by my dreams for my life and God's plan for my life.

I like it.

Fall Out

Sometimes people fall out of our lives.

Sometimes it's their choice, sometimes it's ours, sometimes it's neither.

Sometimes they'll come back into our lives. Sometimes they won't, whether by choice or circumstance.

And if someone doesn't try to be a part of our lives, they don't deserve to be.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

My Next Kiss

I've decided that I want my next kiss to be awesome.

Sure, I want every kiss to not be terrible, but this is something different. I love kissing, it's one of my favorite things. As evidenced by the fact that I was awarded the "Best PDA Award" by my sorority at the end of my pledge semester. Seriously.

Kisses haven't been as special to me lately. Not that I've had a bunch to choose from, but even the idea hasn't been as special.

So I've decided that my next kiss is going to be awesome. Like a kiss that you see in the movies, the kind that makes your toes curl in your shoes. I'm going to wait for just the right moment, just the right person.

And it will be awesome.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Lessons From February

I cannot freakin' believe it's already March. Boy, does the time ever fly.

Well, here are some things I learned in February:

1) It's important to appreciate the love in our lives, from all of its sources.

2) Sometimes things just don't make sense. And that's OK. Or at least it's finally becoming OK with me.

3) When it's over, it's over. Resistance to this fact is futile.

4) Going on dates is fun.

Not too much profound wisdom in February, but wisdom (at least to me) nonetheless. Looking forward to an exciting March...