Lessons from April

I was a bit of a slacker in April in terms of posting to the blog. A testament to how insanely busy things have been lately. Which leads me to my first lesson from April...

1. Being busy is good. To a degree. There's a fine line between being busy and terribly overcommitted. I think I'm walking the line.

2. How do you get over someone? You just do. I never thought I'd say that, but it really is that easy.

3. You don't know what you've got 'til it's gone, but you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives.

4. I think 26 will be a good year.

Older. Wiser?

I turned 26 yesterday.

Might not seem like a monumental birthday, but it was a pretty big deal to me. You see, I'm now closer to 30 than to 20. Yikes.

Everyone who asked how old I'd be turning said that 26 is a great age, a great year. So that gives me some hope for what's to come.

I can't help but think that, here I am, another year older. But am I any wiser? Did I learn anything in the last 365 days?

I think so. I think I've placed a few more pieces in the puzzle that is Ginny.

Maybe by this time next year, I'll have figured out enough pieces to make something really pretty.

Do Better

I'm very guilty of too often dwelling on the past. Thinking about all that I did wrong, how I could've done better, what I should've done differently.

I think that's a form of masochism.

Really, the best I can do is live, learn, and do better the next time.

The First Time

"When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time." Oprah Winfrey

And So It Is

I've been watching a new quasi-reality show on E! that follows three girls and their Mom in their day-t0-day (staged) activities. The family often prays, and they always end their prayers by saying, "and so it is." I always think of Damien Rice's song, "The Blower's Daughter," when I hear them say that.

I think they are nuts.

But today I was thinking about a certain situation, and about how no matter how hard I try, I can't change it. Trust me, I've tried. Some things and some people won't budge.

All the talking, emailing, begging, and pleading hasn't changed this situation, and none of those things will. I've got to accept that this situation is the way that it is for a reason, and I have to trust that the reason is for my good.

And so it is.

Lessons from March

What a whirlwind, the month of March.

Lessons learned are as follows:

1. How do you let go? You just do. You quit thinking about it and worrying about it, and you just do.

2. It's stupid to do things to try to keep up or hang with other people. It usually ends in disaster. At least in my experience.

3. A girl needs her girl time. I read somewhere once that there is a hormone that women only produce when in the company of other women. I believe it.

4. Vague = Probably not good.

5. What happens in NOLA, stays in NOLA.

A Helpful Horoscope

My horoscope for today:

"Everything becomes a bit more complex today becaue you cannot escape your feelings just by doing something else. Your emotions are more persistent now and they can gnaw at your awareness until you acknowledge them and consider the issues they raise. Although you may be irritated because you want to be independt of your attachments, slowing down and sinking into your current experience can teach you more than running off in search of the next one."

That, in a nutshell, is what this Year of Ginny is about for me. Learning to be completely comfortable and content with who I am, right now, in this moment. I've been so guilty in the past of thinking that moving on to the next best thing was the answer, in my work life and in my relationships. When really, what needed changing was me.