Open

I realized yesterday that I've been trying so hard to bring meaning to a certain situation that I've been closing myself off to opportunities.

I have a hard time thinking that a year and a half of my life meant nothing. So I've been hanging on, hoping that some grand meaning would come, and in the process, closing myself off from opportunity. I've been wearing a "Sorry, we're closed" sign around my life and my heart.

No more.

Now this doesn't mean that I'm going to rush into situations or circumstances just because they're there. I'm pretty sure that's what brought me to this point, where I've been desperate for meaning to try to make sense of a situation that just doesn't.

I've always been someone that tries to find the moral of the story, what it all really means. I think this time, "it" means that sometimes things just don't work out. And it doesn't have to make sense. And I'm finally OK with that I think.

Maybe it will all make sense someday. But for now, I'm going to turn on my "Open" sign.

The Sun

I think there is something very real and powerful about sunshine.

The past few days, I was in a weird funk. I just haven't had much motivation this week. To do anything but lay on my couch.

But today it all changed. Granted, I woke up and told myself to make a concerted effort to focus on happiness today, but I also give quite a bit of credit to the sunshine.

If I could thank the sun for shining, I would. I guess I'll thank the God that made it.

Finding My Own Way

Yesterday on my way home from work, I was thinking about how great my little side roads shortcut to get to the Interstate is. I thought, "who was it that told me to go this way?"

Usually someone will recommend that I try this shortcut or that little road to save some time, but I remembered that I came upon my little shortcut completely by accident after missing a turn.

A happy accident after making a wrong turn.

Maybe my next shortcut is just around the corner, after a few wrong turns.